Complaints

I received a first today.  A complaint from a patron about me.  This female came in to return books.  She said her three year old had written in one of them.  I said crazy child.  Well, she took offense to my remarks.  Wrote a letter to my boss, the whole nine yards.  Any one that knows me knows I would NEVER hurt a child in any way.  First I was upset that someone had misconstrued what I said.  So, I looked on her record to get her home and work numbers.  Home phone disconnected, no longer works at that place.  OK, I looked up her other record.  No longer works there either.  Her son's card is expired and he has a fine of $2.70.  Her card is not expired, but has the incorrect name and has a fine balance of $.85.  Let's see here, can we say looking for a reason to bitch and gripe?!  I know I certainly can.  So, I wrote a VERY SHORT apology letter, and it states:

I am formally apologizing for my words being misconstrued.  I would never slander nor defame a child in any way.  “Crazy child” was said in jest only.

And I signed my name.  Let's just hope one of the addresses is correct.

Love and kisses and hugs to all,

M.

Currently Watching The Original Television Christmas Classics (Rudolph the Red-Nosed Reindeer / Santa Claus Is Comin' to Town / Frosty the Snowman / Frosty Returns / The Little Drummer Boy) By Burl Ives, Billie Mae Richards, Paul Soles, Larry D. Mann, Stan Francis, Paul Kligman, Janet Orenstein, Alfie Scopp, Carl Banas, Corinne Conley, Peg Dixon, Fred Astaire, Mickey Rooney, Keenan Wynn, Paul Frees, Joan Gardner (II), Robie Lester, Andrea Sacino, Dina Lynn, Gary White (III) see related

stop the world, i want to get off!

The crazies have subsided a bit.  I had a dear friend (and working associate) tell me to lift all my problems to God.  He is the ultimate solver any way.  Some things are not in our realm of control, only He can sort it all out and put it back like He thinks it should be.  I have realized I may not be happy with my son's decisions, but I cannot beat myself up over it.  I gave him all the skills to be a functioning member of society,  it is up to him to use the skills in a positive way.  If he doesn't, it is not my fault and I cannot change his decision.  There are those people who must go through hell before waking up and smelling the coffee.  I love this child with all my heart and he has broken my heart numerous times.  And I know there are still a few more heart breaks to go through before I die.  But he is my child and I will support whatever decision he makes.  Whether I like it or not.

God give me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change; the courage to change the things I can; and the knowledge to know the difference.

Love to all, Michele

Currently Listening Because It's Christmas baby, it's cold outside see related

OK, things can get worse.  I am trying to figure out a way to take a "vacation" at Brentwood, our local version of the crazy house.  I don't know how much more internalizing my body can take.  I am so freaking fed up with the bullshit of my oldest male child and his entourage of crappy girlfrind shit.  OK, she is pregnant.  That does not mean he has to marry her and stay with her the rest of his life.  He was happier when they were not together.  Yeah, I found out they had broken up before she found out she was pregnant and he was talking to Ashley.  Well, that is now out the fucking window!  Ashley won't even call the house any more to talk with me and the husband.  FUCK!!!!  This is just so crazy.  I do not want to deal with it right now.  Forget grieving for my mom.  I don't have the time.  I guess one day in a few whatevers I will wake up and it will truly hit me she is gone.  I have to deal with the oldest son, the daughter (thank God she is doing OK, I think), and the youngest son.  He just called and said he weighs too much and military is sending to a doctor to lose weight.  The kid has a body fat content of 6%!  How the hell can he lose weight!?

I think I will go home at lunch and not come back to work.  Take a mini vacation.  I can't afford a real vacation, with the crazy house and crazy doctors included.  I don't have any leave time at work.  And I don't want to lose my job.  What the hell.  What am I worried about.  Nobody is going to give a shit if I come to work or not.

M.

Currently Reading On a Highland Shore By Kathleen Givens see related

Since there are only a few people who know where I work, I will vent here.  I had promised myself I would only blog personal, but this has become personal.  My work is part of me.

I am an administrative assistant to a director and asst. director.  I believe I do my job very well.  I am johnny on the spot when something needs to be done.  But I think I am in the wrong workplace.  At a staff meeting yesterday, our meeting leader made it abundantly clear our customers are more important than our staff.  And if a decision had to be made as to whom he would back, he would back our customers.  HELLO, WHAT THE HELL ARE WE, THE EMPLOYEES, HERE FOR?!  But then again, we have a quite a few employees who do not give a shit what type of job they do.  They are here to put in time and collect a paycheck.  Our meeting leader was also outright rude to one of "professional staff."  He did not even give her a chance to explain a misconception he had with what she wanted to discuss.  Needless to say, I have lost a lot of respect for this male.  I had told myself I was not going to give up, I would continue to care and push through and try to change things.  If I do not have the backing of this person, anything I try to do will be for naught.  This person (meeting leader) happens to be our director and I work directly for him, thank you very much.  I think my resume is calling.  It is getting lonely and needs a update.

Love to all, M.

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